Scott Rogowsky was the host of HQ Trivia, and is now the co-founder of Savvy.
Does it ever feel like you’re competing with a ghost?
Although I shall always remain Quiz Daddy Emeritus (and continue slinging vintage tees and sports cards on quizdaddys.com), you are correct to call “HQ Scott” a ghost. Not only because that show is dead, that moment in time is dead, and that era of internet culture is dead, but because that Scott who hosted HQ is dead.
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HQ Scott may have seemed to project a fairly positive outward appearance, but inwardly he was possessed of a deeply unhealthy mindset. Only now can I look back with a gimlet eye at that version of myself and see that I was drowning in a whirlpool of negative self-love (a gentler name for ‘self-hate’), spun by near constant thoughts of self-doubt, self-criticism, self-recrimination, self-consciousness, scarcity, inadequacy, insecurity, unworthiness; plagued by anxiety; shrouded in negativity; chronically complaining; only conditionally content.
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